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[Nov. 18th, 2009|09:15 am] |
Going in to work today is going to be so hard even with a breakfast of nutella on toast and a chauffeur
why does it have to be budget season? |
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[Nov. 14th, 2009|12:47 pm] |
I really hate days like today. I'm in a really bad mood and I think that it is tiredness and 3 tiny glass of wine last night. Now I don't want to go and look at the house I found yesterday nor do I want to go Christmas decoration shopping at B&Q.
I've actually been a bit of a nightmare since going in to work on Thursday. Might have been a bit much or it might have been a reminder of the things I'm missing out on. Either way I've been a super grump since then and poor James has had the lot of it.
Also looks like a trip to Southend in a couple of weeks could be off as the doctor wants me to get the swine flu jab. Going to see if I can get out of it as currently my blood work is fine and therefore I'm not at risk and James is worried the side effects may serve to put me in a darker place. We'll find out on Monday what the consultant thinks.
Looks like I might have sorted the hair problem. Jay has offered to cut it into a short boy ish cut. This would save money at the hair dressers and then if I don't like it Steve has offered to buzz it all off for me. So I'm going to arrange a hair day with the boys one night this week hopefully :)
Think it might be time for silly films and cake |
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[Nov. 10th, 2009|05:45 pm] |
I've just watched a clip on a headscarf website about the lady who started the company. After having a double mastectomy to avoid an 85% chance of getting breast cancer she got alopecia which resulted in total hair loss.
1) You have to feel completely jipped
2) I think she may have been meant to design these head scarves one way or another.
3) alopecia patients don't always have their hair grow back
So I guess this really is something that makes me think that it could have been worse.
I've not got cancer, and the likelihood of my tumour becoming malignant is small. Hopefully with the rapid hormone drop I can stop this treatment soonish (early new year is what I'm hoping for) and then my hair can grow back.
AND I can go and buy one of these scarves that I actually think are quite nice (I think that I will get a silk one for the Christmas period)
http://www.4women.com/fabrics/silk/ |
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[Sep. 22nd, 2009|12:26 pm] |
Just to balance out the crap. Today is not too bad for me and I am even taking cakes into work.
Well that is providing I have that bath and get properly dressed instead of the fake outfit I threw on for the nurse (spent so long emailing I forgot to get dressed!!)
Think that I've figured out why Nigella makes noises over her food - it's the pain of her teeth rotting as soon as the cake enters the mouth!!
James is at the doctors but I'm going to take him into my work when he gets back - wont that be exciting for him :)
iTunes apparently does not want me to listen to Avril - what's the point of having guilty pleasures if your equipment rebels??? |
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[Jul. 6th, 2009|10:48 am] |
managed about 2 hours in the office today and now I am home again for more recouperation under my own guidance
Could be worse but I am feeling a bit like a lepper at the moment |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2009|07:55 am] |
my friend had a baby on Wednesday and I am just too ill to go and see them all.
this makes me very sad |
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[Jul. 1st, 2009|02:18 pm] |
bleh - I have cold or hayfever. Either way I feel rubbish and anti histamine isn't touching it
think my head is going to explode! |
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[Jun. 30th, 2009|10:06 am] |
ah man I'm tired.
Glastonbury was great - might tell you about it sometime when I'm not using all my energy to sit up straight at work and not just dismiss everything as totally unimportant.
meh |
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[Jun. 12th, 2009|10:06 am] |
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aw man - I can't be bothered with today. is it Mazz time yet? |
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[May. 28th, 2009|12:23 pm] |
ah man, what's happening? I thought all the unhappy was meant to happen in Feb
It's nearly June and it appears that even though some people are in a good place all the incidentals are making everyones life hard.
Think it is time for a cosmic shift please. |
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[May. 7th, 2009|01:58 pm] |
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So I went to the doctors today because and only because I have my normal glandular thing but this time it has not gone away after my usual 3 day sleeping treatment.
the doctors is a weird place at the moment - big signs everywhere, use the antibacterial gel after touching anything kind of signs. No one was using the touch screen log in system today (except for me becuase there was a big queue and what the heck - it probably gets wiped every 30 seconds). No one was letting the kids play with the toys, no one was reading the magazine (have you ever seen these stacked neatly?). I realised that I had my hands inside my jacket sleaves so I guess the atmosphere rubbed off.
Saw the doctor. We did talk about me coming into contact with anyone who has come back from Mexico recently, but she believed that it was fine. Told me it was a glandular virus (which is normally is) but apparently there are signs that it has been and still is pretty bad (temperature and the state of my throat that kind of thing). So I'm likely to still be contagious and to rest and not go back to work this week - fine.
I get home and the doctor calls. It seems that someone in the surgery has questioned her decision that I was safe and they have more questions.
Is anyone else in my household sick - well yes actually my husband is also off sick. They were not best pleased with this news and I had to decribe his symptoms. I told them the dates of David's trip again and they actually asked me to call him and ask him a series of questions that they gave me.
Call back and they seem ok ish but because David had what we believe was hayfever they are going to run it past some health agency or something and if it is decided there is sufficient concern someone will be coming round to swab us.
I still think it is nothing but it is a fairly interesting event. Especially as I haven't been out since Saturday |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2009|04:45 pm] |
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why aren't Sundays as long as Mondays? |
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[Mar. 4th, 2009|01:21 pm] |
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I want a zen zap from the buddha |
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[Jan. 4th, 2009|05:08 pm] |
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hmmm not the greatest start to the new year - being ill since last Sat has really started to get me down and I really need to be gearing up and can't be bothered.
Some days I feel better, some days I feel worse - no real pattern.
Going to go to the doctors this week to get pills to see if I can clear this up asap.
If I feel like today at any point this week I think that work might be taking a back seat.
I hate feeling rubbish |
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| 2008 |
[Dec. 31st, 2008|08:38 am] |
I actually quite like doing round up posts of the year and I definitely think 2008 deserves one - I have loved this past year it has been fab. Interesting thing is that normally this is because of many little things but when I break it down it is one big thing that has made all the rubbish fall into the background.
So let's do the obvious one. James asked me to marry him and for whatever reasons, be it that he is the right one for me, the fact that I've wanted this forever or just that it is very exciting it has eclipsed all of the bad things this year.
I like my job, it is busy and challenging and although i don't like the fact that I am less able to hide frustration due to the high rant emotions in the whole team I feel like I belong here. I want to build on this so that next year I feel that I belong here and do a good job.
I loved my flat at the start of the year. It is the first place that has really felt like home. We are beginning to think that we want a house with a garden and more space for people staying over. Next year may see a change in this space.
I got a new car which is ace.
Joined a gym which although I don't attend regularly I have enjoyed the times I have been and love knowing I could go if I felt like it...
Made some great new friends, mostly the guys at work and Sarah from James old work. And maybe the best one is Llinos who although I knew before was not especially close to until this year.
So the not great bits are the stomach problem I've had since January and it looks as though it is just something I have to live with. I do seem able to control it if I think about it carefully and it has lead to weight loss but has put a damper on a few events.
I have tried to close the door on a friendship that has been making me unhappy for quite a long time. I have lost all faith that she would be there for me and as she is not interested in the details of my Wedding because she has already had 2 I have had my belief that she really doesn't care about anything that doesn't revolve around her confirmed. I feel bad, the timing of it all sucks but with the wedding and her impending baby we are both approaching new phases of our lives and I just don't think that I have anything left to give her let alone a new person for it to be worth continuing.
My friend at work lost his wife. This was very horrible but it felt like I got closer to some of the guys here becuase of it. It was a strange feeling attending the funeral, I wish that I had known her and knowing that I only just stepped into the legacy of her life.
What i think has been most amazing is that this is one of the first years where I have found it easier to see the positive aspects of most situations. I wonder how much of this was due to me promising myself that after 2007 I was going to have a good year.
Either way I believe 2009 is going to be even better, I am really optimistic that I am doing the right thing and following the path I want to and this is a really nice place to be. |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2008|09:45 am] |
I think that I might have to accept that I am not quite as normal as normal and I'm getting things worng, presumably because my brain is too full.
If I admit it on here maybe it will go away and I won't do anything else silly |
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[Oct. 10th, 2008|01:12 pm] |
this week has been brought to you by the molecule caffeine and the bar of chocolate...
thing is I love the buzz of a packed week, long days and too much work for us mortal humans - really feel that I am great at what I do and I feel important...
also managing to do evening things too - been out to see a friend and plus 2 stand up shows so all in all doing alright.
Dylan Moran was brilliant on Wed and really looking forward to Russell Howard tonight.
I am however starting to remember why I don't live every week like this - I am tired, and hungry most of the time and the concrete pillars at work start to look like they are totally hugable for some reason... |
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[Sep. 19th, 2008|02:54 pm] |
oh man - I've cried at every song I've listened to today. I either need to get a grip or to start picking better songs!
And I got an email advertising a Carpet Cleaning Team Leader....
am I the only one who feels like this is a strange job? |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2008|09:29 am] |
Yesterday I learnt (quite possibly again) that working, or maybe this job, is the best form of making myself feel better and getting a grip on whatever is going on.
I was pretty down after the weekend and getting my teeth stuck into some numpties that find fundamental manners and proffesionalism too much of a chore cheered me up endlessly.
Bonus of being fired up and giving it a direction also means things get done :o) |
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| Last night |
[Jul. 18th, 2008|09:34 am] |
Went out with work people last night to the Real Ale and Jazz festival in the park behind my house…
Obviously as a big fan of the main Camra festival I was a little sceptical of this much smaller event and as I am not big fan of Jazz I was expecting a good night out but ignoring the music.
We managed to arrive perfectly between bands, got a drink, found our mates, and sat down in time for the second set of the evening. We knew we were in for something special (one way or another) when 6 men in bright yellow suits (and I mean BRIGHT) walked on stage and introduced themselves as the Jive Aces!
It was awesome. As soon as the first chord was played the dance floor was mobbed with people who actually knew how to swing or jive (or possibly Lindy or unconventional Balboa (yes I had a look on the website but I still can't figure out what was being danced last night))
The combination of energy from the band and people really enjoying themselves and mostly looking great while they did this really was a spectacle to behold. Thinking about it I am not sure that I have ever been to a live dance event (and no may pole dancing at a May Day festival when I was 10 does not count).
At one point the most amazing group shift happened where couples stopped dancing as couples and broke into what we can only think of as Jazz line dancing. It was so interesting to watch; it started as 4 people and gradually grew into the whole dance floor doing the same routine.
It turns out that many of the people who were there attend this which makes the Disney style spontaneous formation dancing a little more explainable (cue much confusion and questioning of 'how do you know this dance?' for those of the Enchanted persuasion). However it does not make the whole situation any less impressive nor does it include the many people who didn't know the exact combination of moves who neatly fell into line and got in to the ‘swing’ of things if you’ll excuse the pun.
In fact by the end of it one of the girls from work had managed to pick it up and was delighted to actually get to join in during the following set.
It was quite simply an amazing night out and one to be repeated.
*goes off to find lessons/events and to plot a cunning plan to get James dancing*
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